Monday, October 22, 2012

Masamang Panaginip


"Boss, mamamatay na'ko bukas. Pakihanda lahat. Yung station ko sinong uupo? Make sure na magaling siyang bumenta ok?!"

At agad akong nagising. Sobrang nakakatakot na panaginip. Napabangon ako sa aking hinihigaan at kumuha ng maiinom. Napatingin ako sa malaking orasan sa sala, alas tres pa lang ng madaling araw. MY GOD! Pero mas lalo kong natakot dahil ganung oras nagaganap ang mga kababalaghan gaya ng pelikula ni Exorcism of Emily Rose. Buti naman wala akong nakitang usok malapit sa fridge. (sigh)

Nagsindi ako ng isang sigarilyo at naupo sa kusina.

" Kabaligtaran ba ito na mas hahaba pa ang buhay ko? O tila paalala na nalalapit na nga ang buhay ko sa mundong ito".

Siyempre, para malaman kung anong ibig sabihin ng panaginip, masasagot ni Google. At ito ang mga binigay na kahulugan.


To dream that you die may represent involvement in deeply painful relationships or unhealthy, destructive behaviors. You may feeling depressed or feel strangled by a situation or person in your waking life. Perhaps your mind is preoccupied with someone who is terminally ill or dying. Alternatively, you may be trying to get out of some obligation, responsibility or other situation. You are desperately trying to escape from the demands of your daily life. 

To dream that you die in your dream symbolizes inner changes, transformation, self-discovery and positive development that is happening within you or your life. You are undergoing a transitional phase and are becoming more enlightened or spiritual. Although such a dream may bring about feelings of fear and anxiety, it is no cause for alarm as it is often considered a positive symbol.  Dreams of experiencing your own death usually means that big changes are ahead for you. You are moving on to new beginnings and leaving the past behind. These changes does not necessarily imply a negative turn of events. Metaphorically, dying can be seen as an end or a termination to your old ways and habits. So, dying does not always mean a physical death, but an ending of something.
To smell death in your dream refers to a situation that has long been dead. It is time to stop dwelling on the past and move on.
DREAMS...


Siguro nga its time to stop dwelling on the past and move on ang pinakamalapit na kahulugan nang napanaginipan ko. Eh GAGO kasi mga ex ko eh. ( lol )

Eh pano naman kaya yung dati kong panaginip na nagpakita yung tito kong namatay dahil sa throat cancer nung birthday ko?


If you dream of a person who has died a long time ago, then it suggests that a current situation or relationship in your life resembles the quality of that deceased person. The dream may depict how you need to let this situation or relationship die and end it


DREAMS

Oh! Parehas kaming smoker ni tito. Stop smoking na daw siguro. Sumalangit nawa ang kaluluwa mo tito. Natakot naman ako lalo!


At pagkagising ko kaninang umaga, nag-online agad ako. Hinanap ko ang kahulugan ng panaginip ko.  Ang mga naunang panaginip at nasulat ko ang napanaginipan ko. Gets? Kaya ngayon hinahanap ko ang meaning ng panaginip ko, nanaginip sa panaginip  ( the dreaming within a dream)


To dream that you are dreaming or daydreaming signifies your emotional state.  You are excessively worried and fearful about a situation or circumstance that you are going through. Dreaming that you are dreaming also serves as a layer of protection from what you are feeling. The dream within a dream allows you to experience certain difficult feelings that may otherwise be too painful to confront if you were directly dreaming the scenario. 


Ayan ang isinagot ng google...DREAMS

I agree. I'm worried right now because I got my second opinion test last Sun, and I was surprised that I was  REACTIVE to both types of H...Yes.I know Im POZ for over a year only to H1, now I have H2  as well!  :-( Congratulations Bingo!


Sana isa lang tong masamang panaginip!

Sunday, October 21, 2012

Ang Tapat Na Di Dapat


Kailan mo ba ako hihiwalayan?
Matagal na din ako'y 'yong sinamahan.
'Wag nama'y "Sa Dulo ng Walang Hanggan"
Pagkat ito'y di na magandang samahan.

Sa isang kaibigan, ika'y nakilala.
Dulot mo'y saya, lungkot, minsa'y ginhawa
Sa bawat hinga'y pinaliligaya
Sa kwentuhan at kapehan, ika'y kasama

Sinamahan di lang sa trabahong pang-gabi
Maging sa araw, ika'y laging katabi
Kaya nuong Disyembre, tayo'y nahuli
Sa samahang di ko na ikukubli

Lubos kang tinaggap ng aking pamilya
Kahit na may babala sa 'king ina
Kapag ang isip daw ang isinara
Kalusugan daw iyong masisira

Halos kapiling ka na ng limang taon
Di iniwan kahit sang' pagkakataon
Sa saya, lungkot at ginhawa'y naroon
Sinamahan kahit saan pumaroon

Ngayo'y hindi na ko makahinga
Samahan natin dati'y ginhawa
Ngayo'y ika'y aking problema
Ubo ko'y punong puno na ng plema! 

(isinulat dahilan sa Laryngitis 03-19-11)

The Falls


                   I had this unforgettable dream way back 2006 during my first traumatic suspension at work.  I was bewildered thinking what would happen next if I lose my job, or what should I do during my suspension. I was afraid  that I might not able to get a new job because at that time, I haven't even finished my college and my records to my current work might ruin my future application. My self esteem had gone down. 
                    I went home immediately and decided to sleep just to escape reality. I did not tell anyone about it, nor to my parents. I knew they would be disappointed if they found out that I won't have my job anymore. I'm the eldest or should  I say the proud  "Kuya" among my three siblings. They were too young at that time so I give their daily allowance for their school. My younger brother at that time was in high school, and my two younger sisters were in elementary.  My parents income is really not enough to suffice our financial needs. My father works as a driver and my mother works part time to a research company. 

It was a very hot afternoon and I was paddling a canoe in a creek. It was a small and ordinary canoe that looks like  balsa similar to the boats in Matabungkay made from bamboo. I saw my parents carrying a small paddle trying to help me on the other side of the boat while my siblings seated in the middle.  I really don't know where we were heading. All I remember from my dream is we were in a creek  taking some pictures on some beautiful trees, flowers, and it was smooth sailing. The surroundings are really amazing.  





Though I was already sweating and almost tired, I was smiling seeing them enjoying our beautiful trip. We have never been to that kind of vacation. Then suddenly, we fell from the edge of a falls. It was a disaster! Since dreams narrate very weird, I saw myself paddling again after that incident and we went back again to a very smooth sailing. No troubled water at all.  


I was afraid and 
still afraid.
A lot of questions.
A lot of interpretations. 
What will happen tomorrow?
Where am I heading?
Each day is very important.
Time is precious
So treasure every moment with your loved ones.
I don't know what will happen next nor do you.
Only God Knows.....